Okay, so I had a revelation today-an epiphany, if you will. I went to the mall around noonish today. It wasn't as fun a trip as I would've liked it to be. If you read my 'Heartbreak Warfare' post after this one, you'd know why. But while I was there, I had a thought. I also had some pretzels while enjoying a Free Hugs button and Blink 182 T-shirt. But back to the thought.
What if you put a slinky on the escalator?
Now, if you have put a slinky on stairs, you'd know that the slinky would bounce down the stairs. Very amusing.
So think of it on an escalator.
Now let me totally blow your mind.
A slinky on the UP escalator!
That slinky would always be going down
down
down
without a stop.
The infinite slinky!
That slinky would be repeatedly descending continuous stairs until the end of time.
Now, tell me that wouldn't be amazing! Just Wonderin'...
Saturday, March 12, 2011
Heartbreak Warfare
Well, bloggers, I just had my first break-up. I'm not over it yet, considering it hurt more than anything. Which it did- I'm not going to lie. I was dumped by the guy who always told me I was beautiful, always made me smile, called me his girl, and said he was always happy as long as he was with me. So, this was TOTALLY unexpected.
Anyways, I also have the flu, so this is all going at a pretty good down-spiral.
Am I hurt? Yes. Did I cry? Yes. I wish this never happened. I wish we worked it out because he made me so happy. But one of these days, as a friend of mine has told me, I'll have to get over it. Things'll look up.
Let's hope so.
But, since I am a dweeb, I checked his Facebook page last night. All of my pictures were gone, like I expected, and he had "Well, I'm single now" on his wall. Made me feel like a total jerk, like people are thinking it's my fault, when I was trying to fix it all. But one thing I saw totally changed my outlook on things.
He has an older brother in college. I've heard all these stories on how he could be a total jerk and was always in trouble. I also heard recently that he quit drugs and has been a way different person.
So, under the comment he had posted about being single-which upset me very much- his older brother had posted a comment.
I read it.
I read it again.
I smiled.
Then I laughed until my sore throat stopped me. I laughed with tears. I thought I was crying again, but really, I was smiling and laughing and crying because I know that I can get over this.
I can't live my life being depressed like this. I fell asleep with my clothes on at 8:00 last night and went through half a box of Kleenex. I couldn't even eat. Well, that was the flu acting up, mostly. But still. No one should be like this.
So, yeah, I'm upset. Yeah, I'm really sad this happened. But I'll move on. I'll feel better. Life continues.
Now, I guess you're wondering what his older brother posted to make me laugh at 6 a.m. and have a new perspective on things. His brother posted- and I'm starring out the swears, since Blogger has me listed as kid-friendly -
"(My ex's name), you ******* tool, why would you do that? Your girlfriend is way out of your league!!! Stay with her, retard."
I only met his brother once.
Now, 'retard' is really offensive to me. I don't like that term. But LOOK at what he said! I couldn't believe it. I met that guy one time long enough for my ex to say "This is Whatsername" and for his brother to say "HI". He barely knows me, unless he's seen pics of me or heard about me.
But it made me feel better about myself. Like this isn't all my fault. Like I have people backing me up- even ones I don't even know. It showed me that I can move on. I can't just yet, this was only yesterday, but I can. I'll try.
Now, his brother posted that 4 hours ago and I logged on at 6 a.m. because I woke up and had the hangover effect- which is what I call that 5 seconds after you wake up where you don't remember anything, but after those 5 seconds, everything comes back to you in a rush. So, that comment was at, what, 2 a.m.? My ex hasn't seen it yet.
I want to know what he says SO bad.
But until then, I'm single now. He can say it; so can I. It doesn't sound good, but I'm single. I'm going to take more time to spend with all my buds that I haven't been hanging out with as much. I'll be okay.
For anyone else going through this, it will be okay. You are perfect just the way you are. Someone will see that and will never want to let you go.
Will I ever find that person? Will he and I stay friends after our ugly split? What will he say to his brother's comment? Who knows. Just Wonderin'...
Anyways, I also have the flu, so this is all going at a pretty good down-spiral.
Am I hurt? Yes. Did I cry? Yes. I wish this never happened. I wish we worked it out because he made me so happy. But one of these days, as a friend of mine has told me, I'll have to get over it. Things'll look up.
Let's hope so.
But, since I am a dweeb, I checked his Facebook page last night. All of my pictures were gone, like I expected, and he had "Well, I'm single now" on his wall. Made me feel like a total jerk, like people are thinking it's my fault, when I was trying to fix it all. But one thing I saw totally changed my outlook on things.
He has an older brother in college. I've heard all these stories on how he could be a total jerk and was always in trouble. I also heard recently that he quit drugs and has been a way different person.
So, under the comment he had posted about being single-which upset me very much- his older brother had posted a comment.
I read it.
I read it again.
I smiled.
Then I laughed until my sore throat stopped me. I laughed with tears. I thought I was crying again, but really, I was smiling and laughing and crying because I know that I can get over this.
I can't live my life being depressed like this. I fell asleep with my clothes on at 8:00 last night and went through half a box of Kleenex. I couldn't even eat. Well, that was the flu acting up, mostly. But still. No one should be like this.
So, yeah, I'm upset. Yeah, I'm really sad this happened. But I'll move on. I'll feel better. Life continues.
Now, I guess you're wondering what his older brother posted to make me laugh at 6 a.m. and have a new perspective on things. His brother posted- and I'm starring out the swears, since Blogger has me listed as kid-friendly -
"(My ex's name), you ******* tool, why would you do that? Your girlfriend is way out of your league!!! Stay with her, retard."
I only met his brother once.
Now, 'retard' is really offensive to me. I don't like that term. But LOOK at what he said! I couldn't believe it. I met that guy one time long enough for my ex to say "This is Whatsername" and for his brother to say "HI". He barely knows me, unless he's seen pics of me or heard about me.
But it made me feel better about myself. Like this isn't all my fault. Like I have people backing me up- even ones I don't even know. It showed me that I can move on. I can't just yet, this was only yesterday, but I can. I'll try.
Now, his brother posted that 4 hours ago and I logged on at 6 a.m. because I woke up and had the hangover effect- which is what I call that 5 seconds after you wake up where you don't remember anything, but after those 5 seconds, everything comes back to you in a rush. So, that comment was at, what, 2 a.m.? My ex hasn't seen it yet.
I want to know what he says SO bad.
But until then, I'm single now. He can say it; so can I. It doesn't sound good, but I'm single. I'm going to take more time to spend with all my buds that I haven't been hanging out with as much. I'll be okay.
For anyone else going through this, it will be okay. You are perfect just the way you are. Someone will see that and will never want to let you go.
Will I ever find that person? Will he and I stay friends after our ugly split? What will he say to his brother's comment? Who knows. Just Wonderin'...
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